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I'm Maria.
I exist only in theory

Devious Info

  • Current Residence: earth
  • Interests: drawing, painting, computering, brain melting, nerding off.
  • Favourite movie: garden state, eternal sunshine of the spotess mind, donnie darko, pulp fiction, across the universe
  • Favourite band or musician: !!!
  • Favourite genre of music: general rock; punk, ska, metal/screamo, techno/trance, indie, grunge/garage.
  • Favourite artist: sidney goodman, salvador dali
  • Favourite poet or writer: hermann hesse
  • Favourite photographer: carla marie freed
  • Favourite style of art: surrealism, expressionism
  • Operating System: mac
  • MP3 player of choice: iPod nano, 8gig.
  • Skin of choice: scarred
  • Favourite game: pacman
  • Favourite gaming platform: nintendo64, nintendo wii
  • Favourite cartoon character: frylock
  • Personal Quote: "i'm not angy, i'm in a perfectly happy mood, asshole"-- krt cbn
  • Tools of the Trade: the blood and guts of freshmen and middle schoolers that i have extracted and turned into paint

Devious Journal Entry

Thu Jul 2, 2009, 4:42 PM
So, I think I may have everything figured out. I mean, not really, but like, in terms of... well. I don't know.
I thinks there has to be a reason that I've stopped giving it my all, especially concerning relationships. I mean, there was a point I would never turn someone down, and I'd be really happy knowing someone else liked me. I don't have that anymore. I really don't care. Yeah, relationships are great, I love them. But, I haven't found them as rewarding. They're just there, sitting, making no difference aside from the constant talking with one another, but I mean, other than that, it's nothing.
I have no problem now making out with a different person everyday of the week. This doesn't phase me at all. I don't feel any guilt, or jealously if they go with someone else. It all became completely meaningless to me.
So, as Aubree and I were sitting outside of Wawa at two in the morning, I think I figured it out. Of course, this was when we, being the awesome emotional masochists we are, looked through our old saved texts that should be deleted but aren't.
I have my standards set too high. I'm looking for something I had a little over a year ago. I want that, and I don't believe that there is anything like that out there, and, if there is, it's going to end the same way. So, I'm looking but ruining all my chances with these extraordinary standards that should never be fulfilled for reasons that nobody in the world can be that perfect, so obviously something horrible is going to go down.
Sexually, I'm confused as fuck. I don't even know anymore. I've given up with labels.


Current mental status: emotionally fucked.

  • Mood: Not Impressed
  • Listening to: the Chemical Brothers.
  • Reading: The Glass Bead Game- Hesse.

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thank you so much for the watch :)

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black and blue and broken bones.
Your art vaguely reminds me of some of the water colors done by Marilyn Manson, but completely unique and of its own. Its incredibly interesting and I look forward to seeing more.

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sometimes i like to wrap my whole body in aluminum foil just to see what id look like as a robot
You have a very cool gallery. :)

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